count down 3 more weeks

even as we do something every single day and spend each day together, part of me also feels that the departure days is just drawing itself closer and inching towards the both of us.. it's something i dun want to talk about, but it's something that silently i cry to myself about, choking back the tears that i have in my eyes.. i just can't say it out.. maybe it's just a feeling and thought that i need to be brave for both our sakes, that at that moment in time when my heart is the most upset, that i have cried out most of my tears that nothing much is left to the actual day itself.. it's not wrong for me to cry because it would be almost a year of separation but my last worry would be let you see how much it hurts to let you go even though i dun want to.. but it's our chance at freedom, our chance to live our dreams, our chance to go beyond where we have ever went and do what we never had the chance to do.. although separate in our own ways and in opposite ends of this world exactly 12 hours apart, like what you said, we start anew. Anew means a lot to you, a lot more than what it means to me. It represents freedom, it represents independence, it represents no more responsibilities, no more having to take care of the little nitty gritty in life, no more having to shoulder everything in life. For that, i know you have to go and you need to go.
even though it breaks my heart to know that you're so far away, i love you too much to make you stay. it's only fair to you.
3 weeks and 1 more day to go. i need to just hang on n cherish this time with you. my d day would be 6 weeks to go.